Friday, November 29, 2013

Little thoughts

Suddenly, I keep reminding myself that I'm getting older. Even as I type, I'm getting older :( It then occurred to me that I'm not the only one getting older. Everyone else is too... My family, my friends and even my pets :( I'm so afraid that I would lose any single one of my loved ones. Anyone whom I hold dear to may just be gone one day, and that thought sucks so much. I haven't really been spending quality time with my family, nor friends these days since school has been occupying most of my time. Not that I don't want to, but I really really really wish I can spend more time with people. I don't want to regret it only when they're gone. In life, I have taken many things for granted, especially my grandmother who took care of me when I was younger and cooks my dinner for me everyday, even up till now when I rarely visit her. Honestly, I don't like most of the food that she cooks and once in a blue moon I would like the dishes she prepared. But now as I ponder about it, I should have treasured every single meal she cooked because I may end up missing her home-cooked food one day... (Omg I have this surge of emotions suddenly). I have 2 holland lopped bunnies and yes, they're so adorable... until they start to poop and pee everywhere. One of them is potty-trained but the other isn't. But both of them pick up bad habits from each other, unfortunately. They can really dirty the place mercilessly and poor me always gets scolded from my parents even though I've already cleaned up after them several times before they started their poop spree again. :\ But, I still love them a lot. That's because, although they're so naughty, they're really affectionate at the same time. You can tell that they're happy to see you when you play with them and especially when you feed them, they just get into a frenzy. Sometimes I wished they could communicate with me more because I really can't tell what they're thinking. Like, if I forgot to refill their water bottle/feed them or whatsoever, they can't tell me. They have an average lifespan to about 10 years and they're about 3 years old now. And I JUST HOPE I'M GONE BEFORE THEM, RATHER THAN THEY WOULD BE BEFORE ME. Enough said. This year, I managed to learn how to appreciate things more. Give more, expect less. I feel so much happier this way. :) 


Sunday, November 24, 2013


Yes, I hate my retainers so so so so so much >:( its something that I dislike wearing but NEED to wear, otherwise it'd be at my expense. Its been about a month since I removed my braces and ever since then, I've been wearing this burdensxzgxhchisirid thingy on my teeth.. I can't even speak properly up till now with it on. So much for 'will get used to it after a few days'. *roll eyes* THE LETTER 'S' TAKES SO MUCH EFFORT TO PRONOUNCE.. I SAY IT LIKE A BABY WHO'S LEARNING HOW TO PRONOUNCE THE LETTER S AND THEN GET LAUGHED AT. :( AND THANKS TO RETAINERS MY DAILY ROUTINE HAS CHANGED. For example, before eating, go toilet. After eating, go toilet. JUST TO TAKE OFF THOSE RETAINERS. Veryveryvery troublesome :( But.... hahaa sometimes if I'm lazy right, I just take it out in front of my friends and shake those salivary gross things in front of their faces :p welllllll they don't seem to mind upfront but who knows deep inside they're judging me big time. :') Now that I think about it... I guess it's not so bad after all... HAHAAH SRY FOR CONTRADICTING LOL. Because retainers are so much better than wearing braces. Since the day I wore braces, i've been anticipating to take it off cos I hate it so much xD K BYEEE

Monday, November 18, 2013

Quick update!

Yooo! My first DIY cover ever made by hand! :D Just a day before I made this, I went on to google to search for all the items I need.. annndddd tada! Quite satisfied it but I believe it could've been so much better if not for the fake cream being to hard to squeeze out arrragggh!!!! >:( I should prolly try it out from somewhere else next time! So far I'm planning to make another cover but this time with blingblings :) LOOKING FORWARD! HOWEVER, not at the moment because tests are coming soon.. so stressed tgat I'm breaking out.. :(

Materials purchased from BEADTLE SWEET & DAISO

Friday, November 15, 2013

Used to neglection

This prolly sums up the whole of my past time. About 2 months ago, Final Fantasy 14 was released and somehow I being sucked into playing it for the holidays till now even tho its the 5th week of school. It has kept me busy till now xD I feel guilty for gaming instead of studying but honestly it's one of the few things that makes me happy now.. Since life has been meh.. And who am I kidding? I'm not so disciplined as to study during my free time anyway. But honestly, these days I can't find the energy for games anymore. Everyday when I return home from school I'm already dead beat. Tired physically, mentally and emotionally. I don't know what's gotten into me. I'm not sure why but I've become so pessimistic about things these days and I don't know why I start seeing more and more people as superficial. No one seems genuinely happy these days and having to try force myself to look happy these days drains so much energy from me. I just don't like people seeing the unhappy side of me because it's really not nice for people having to ask you what happened to you and all that. I can see through most of the people around me, that I'm not the only one facing this problem. This saddens me a lot. I guess it's really true that most people say "I'm tired" when they're actually feeling depressed inside. Yes. I'm tired. So, so, SO tired. It's the kind of tiredness that sleep can't solve. On a much cheerful note, I believe I can pull through all these like I've always have. :)