Sugar Coated Lies

So many things I want to say but don't know who to trust enough
Vexed. Uneasy. Breathless.
I can literally feel my heartache. 
You said you'd miss me but you seem fine without me.
You said you'd be there for me but you weren't.
You said I mattered to you, yet you left me hanging.
You said I was your everything when I was nothing.
I waited for you. 
Too long.
I grew tired of waiting.
Things you told me.
They were sugar coated lies.
Lies which I believed were true.
So much for believing all that shit that you'd say.
Was it something I did? Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hanging.
No, not this time.
It hurts so... much...
You were all the things I thought I knew.. And I thought we could be.