Fifty-eight more days

As much as I'd like to have an interesting post, my life has been a routine since internship started. Guess my life wasn't as interesting to begin with. I've been told I'm more of an introvert which I, myself am not quite sure of. I would say I'm a mix of both ex&introverted. I can be super outgoing one day and in my own world the next day. HAHAHA! I was also told that I have a bad vibe, no? :( No wonder people don't like me/ stay away from me and don't approach me la LOL... :( It's sad how people judge me completely opposite from who I really am. So far, I don't think I'm doing very well at work. Probably it's because I did not have a particularly good impression on the first day itself. Looks like I have to fact the consequence of my actions, :(((( On a much cheerful note, I still have about 2 more months left to prove my worth... And they better see it otherwise... Otherwise I'm gonna burn this place down. No, I am joking. ;) Maybe.

Although my internship grades would not affect my GPA, I still want it to be good because honestly, I think I don't deserve a D. Most of the things here I picked up myself and they expect me to know how they operate just because I've learnt tax as a module in poly? I was not offered proper guidance honestly and I regret not complaining. TSK. I feel as though they just kicked me into a swimming pool and expect me to swim for the first time. LOL. No, please don't imagining it happening for real.. xD Haha, I just don't know why things always don't work out for me. Not to mention, my grades in school are taking a dive, and I'm so fortunate not to repeat any modules though I almost did. I WAS JUST LUCKY OK?! Most of my friends kept telling me that they're scared they'll forward module. IN THE END, grades so good. -.- I don't know what to say. Fuck you all. I really don't know what to say. Don't worry, I will not snatch your places in university.. You all can go fight for your seats for university among yourselves, just don't include me in, because, I know it for myself that I have no place there right from the start. I'd rather stay out of your competitive lives and mind my own business because this is not my major. Yes, I'm in the wrong course. It was a big mistake I know, but nothing I do will change the fact that I've already spent more than 2 years here. It's a struggle, yes, but I've set my mind to make sure I do not repeat the same mistakes again and do something I like instead, which is definitely not what I'm doing right now.

One day, things will change for the better, I'm sure of it. :)

Sugar Coated Lies

So many things I want to say but don't know who to trust enough
Vexed. Uneasy. Breathless.
I can literally feel my heartache. 
You said you'd miss me but you seem fine without me.
You said you'd be there for me but you weren't.
You said I mattered to you, yet you left me hanging.
You said I was your everything when I was nothing.
I waited for you. 
Too long.
I grew tired of waiting.
Things you told me.
They were sugar coated lies.
Lies which I believed were true.
So much for believing all that shit that you'd say.
Was it something I did? Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hanging.
No, not this time.
It hurts so... much...
You were all the things I thought I knew.. And I thought we could be.

The littlest things matters most

Whoohoo~ Finally a meetup with my friends on day 4 of CNY! <3 It was super impromptu and I'm glad most of them were able to make it. Simple things like this can really make my day. In fact I can feel my spirit being being lifted up HAHAHAHA. Yes, I was too happy that despite smiling like an idiot in the ONLY group shot we had, I STILL HAVE TO POST IT. 

Ok don't look anymore. Walao! my eyes look like 2 lines la. Yeah we had dinner at Timhowan and I had a bad diarrhea after that. Even had to get out of bed to rush to the toilet during the wee hours. It was that bad. I suspect it was the mango sago. Other than that, the food was good :) I still feel it was a waste to not be able to capture all the pics of the food we ordered... :(((( AHHHH BLAME THE HUNGRY PEEPS.  

Ending off with selfie~~ though I was damn tired alr. Vain what, what to do. I swear I did not edit my eyes... Though I admit it looks kinda creepy big, I guess it's big only at tt second when I snapped it only la cos they're usually quite small. Ok, Cya! :D